oh BOY!

first of all, you gotta see this. this is a new pic of my beautiful baby boy:

so, whaddya think? creepy or just plain adorable!?

LOL

well, i can't say this is an accurate pic, but it is true, i am having a BOY! let's hope for my son's sake, that he looks a little more like me than David... ;)

so yeah, we found out on December 30th, 2009 that we were having a boy. to my very unexpected surprise! is it weird for me to say that i wanted a little baby girl more so than a boy?? hahaha. another true fact. but i'm still one happy camper =).

i can't wait to build forts, play with nerf guns, wrestle, school him in video games, attack David with him, play sports together, make funny faces, and talk to him about his girl problems. lol. i can't wait!!! he already sounds like so much fun.

anyways, the other day i was disgusted to find that my belly button is starting to pop out. i heard it might happen, but i didn't think it would happen to me lol. it's not like a true OUTIE, but it's almost like it's halfway there lol. at least i was told i can clean the lint out of it much easier hahaha. uggh.

so for the record, i'm 5 months along now and counting. i would consider my belly HUGE right now, but i guess it's only going to get bigger. i MIGHT have "belly" pics up soon... and that's a big MIGHT. i still can't get used to this pregnant body lol. i don't feel flattering at all, hence avoiding taking pics.

anywhoo... i don't know who actually reads this, but i'll try to keep this blog updated lol. i guess if nobody reads this, i'll just call it my own personal diary.

later!

time to reverse the "flogger" status

okay yeah i know... i haven't been on here in ages. mainly because i'm too lazy, and i usually don't have anything very interesting to say lol. i'm not obsessed enough with anything to write about it, i don't have very many cool hobbies, what's so cool about working, sleeping and eating?

anyways... perhaps i should describe my pregnancy woes. if only my baby in utero could understand what he or she is putting me through lol. it is actually quite grueling right from the beginning, and i fully understand now (well actually, maybe not FULLY yet). my mama's wise words of wisdom, "you'll understand what i mean when you have your own children", is really starting to hit me lol.

Thanks Mommy, for going through awful labor pain for me =)

and i guess that's only the beginning. so many years of disobedience, talking back, attitude, thinking we know it all, unappreciation, lack of giving back affection, fighting, temper tantrums... no wonder parents don't feel enough appreciation from their children lol. after all they have to go through...

anyways, i kinda went off topic. so to the exact date, i'm 16 weeks and 4 days along. so 4 months and 4 days. still near the beginning of my second trimester. 5 months to go!!

here are my pregnancy woes, literally.

- very random extreme lower back pain... and this has got to be the worst of all of it. sometimes the pain is so unbearable, it actually wakens me from a deep sleep. and i HATE being woken up in the middle of my sleep. HATE IT. and the scary part is, i'm not even that BIG yet. i can't imagine how much WORSE the pain will be when my belly feels 10 pounds heavier?? oh and apparently sometimes the baby "sits" on my sciatic nerve. want to know how much that hurts?? ask those unfortunate people who have sciatica.

- so i've recently learned that i'm not even allowed to sleep on my back. well, maybe i can for a bit longer (not big enough yet). but once that baby bump finally POPS, sleeping on my back will put too much pressure on my blood vessels back there. and just my luck! i'm a BACK sleeper of all things. at least i'm not a stomach sleeper. that might suck a little bit more.

- exhaustion 24/7. and someone wise told me, it will be that way for the next 20 years. (yay!)

- the extreme need to EAT, EAT, and EAT some more. well, not really complaining about this one actually. in fact, i'm going to take full advantage of this.

- the fact that my growing body has got to be the most awkward thing right now. AWKWARD. it's actually kind of depressing. especially for someone like me, who is already quite self-conscious. gaining weight in my thighs, butt, hips, and belly is oh so FUN. so extremely fun. i feel like a cow. and i say it's at an awkward stage because i don't quite fully LOOK pregnant yet, i just look like i have huge SPARE TIRE. kinda like where a stranger will look at me and wonder, pregnant or fat? pretty sad. i just wish my belly would POP OUT already, so strangers can now be like, ooooohhhh, she's pregnant, obviously! the worst part is, i have to go LAS VEGAS this way. just so weird looking, so weird. i'm 90% tempted to wear a Moo Moo and never leave my house for the next 5 months. thank goodness for not being pregnant during the SUMMER.

- NO Caffeine, NO Sushi? Ugh... just ugh. (NO alcohol? hah... jk)

- having to pee like every half hour. inconvenient to the MAX. so very inconvenient.

in all honesty, i could continue this list FOREVER. i've probably only described like a quarter of my issues. but i'm on tight time constraints at my job. well, plus i lost my deep train of thought cuz i had to do my job for a few minutes. hahaha. thank goodness for night shifts.

anyways, don't get me wrong. i'm very very VERY excited to have this baby. everything to me is already worth it. the things i have to go through will be nothing compared to the happiness of having a little bundle of joy in my arms. (crossing my fingers for a GIRL... lol, is that bad? well, if i have a son, hopefully he never reads this...)

well actually, i'm not really looking forward to the labor part. one thing i've learned about myself, i seem to have a pretty low pain threshold. that sucks.

wish us luck, on December 30th, we get to find out if it's a boy or girl!! that's only apparently if the baby decides to cooperate. last time, it didn't!! i'm so impatient, i want to know what it is NOW! anyways, that is a highly anticipated ultrasound appointment we have coming up...

wow i sure wrote a lot... see how great night shift is? =D