time to reverse the "flogger" status

okay yeah i know... i haven't been on here in ages. mainly because i'm too lazy, and i usually don't have anything very interesting to say lol. i'm not obsessed enough with anything to write about it, i don't have very many cool hobbies, what's so cool about working, sleeping and eating?

anyways... perhaps i should describe my pregnancy woes. if only my baby in utero could understand what he or she is putting me through lol. it is actually quite grueling right from the beginning, and i fully understand now (well actually, maybe not FULLY yet). my mama's wise words of wisdom, "you'll understand what i mean when you have your own children", is really starting to hit me lol.

Thanks Mommy, for going through awful labor pain for me =)

and i guess that's only the beginning. so many years of disobedience, talking back, attitude, thinking we know it all, unappreciation, lack of giving back affection, fighting, temper tantrums... no wonder parents don't feel enough appreciation from their children lol. after all they have to go through...

anyways, i kinda went off topic. so to the exact date, i'm 16 weeks and 4 days along. so 4 months and 4 days. still near the beginning of my second trimester. 5 months to go!!

here are my pregnancy woes, literally.

- very random extreme lower back pain... and this has got to be the worst of all of it. sometimes the pain is so unbearable, it actually wakens me from a deep sleep. and i HATE being woken up in the middle of my sleep. HATE IT. and the scary part is, i'm not even that BIG yet. i can't imagine how much WORSE the pain will be when my belly feels 10 pounds heavier?? oh and apparently sometimes the baby "sits" on my sciatic nerve. want to know how much that hurts?? ask those unfortunate people who have sciatica.

- so i've recently learned that i'm not even allowed to sleep on my back. well, maybe i can for a bit longer (not big enough yet). but once that baby bump finally POPS, sleeping on my back will put too much pressure on my blood vessels back there. and just my luck! i'm a BACK sleeper of all things. at least i'm not a stomach sleeper. that might suck a little bit more.

- exhaustion 24/7. and someone wise told me, it will be that way for the next 20 years. (yay!)

- the extreme need to EAT, EAT, and EAT some more. well, not really complaining about this one actually. in fact, i'm going to take full advantage of this.

- the fact that my growing body has got to be the most awkward thing right now. AWKWARD. it's actually kind of depressing. especially for someone like me, who is already quite self-conscious. gaining weight in my thighs, butt, hips, and belly is oh so FUN. so extremely fun. i feel like a cow. and i say it's at an awkward stage because i don't quite fully LOOK pregnant yet, i just look like i have huge SPARE TIRE. kinda like where a stranger will look at me and wonder, pregnant or fat? pretty sad. i just wish my belly would POP OUT already, so strangers can now be like, ooooohhhh, she's pregnant, obviously! the worst part is, i have to go LAS VEGAS this way. just so weird looking, so weird. i'm 90% tempted to wear a Moo Moo and never leave my house for the next 5 months. thank goodness for not being pregnant during the SUMMER.

- NO Caffeine, NO Sushi? Ugh... just ugh. (NO alcohol? hah... jk)

- having to pee like every half hour. inconvenient to the MAX. so very inconvenient.

in all honesty, i could continue this list FOREVER. i've probably only described like a quarter of my issues. but i'm on tight time constraints at my job. well, plus i lost my deep train of thought cuz i had to do my job for a few minutes. hahaha. thank goodness for night shifts.

anyways, don't get me wrong. i'm very very VERY excited to have this baby. everything to me is already worth it. the things i have to go through will be nothing compared to the happiness of having a little bundle of joy in my arms. (crossing my fingers for a GIRL... lol, is that bad? well, if i have a son, hopefully he never reads this...)

well actually, i'm not really looking forward to the labor part. one thing i've learned about myself, i seem to have a pretty low pain threshold. that sucks.

wish us luck, on December 30th, we get to find out if it's a boy or girl!! that's only apparently if the baby decides to cooperate. last time, it didn't!! i'm so impatient, i want to know what it is NOW! anyways, that is a highly anticipated ultrasound appointment we have coming up...

wow i sure wrote a lot... see how great night shift is? =D

woah

so... i'm going to be a mommy.

i'm extremely excited! at the same time, i'm extremely terrified.

this is definitely a new adventure for David and me... and i'm sure it will be very fun =).

basically i've been feeling like CRAP on a 24/7 basis for the past 2 weeks now. i barely have the energy to even type this blog. i'm struggling with all efforts!!

so here's what it feels like thus far:

- around the clock "morning sickness" like you wouldn't believe... there are times when i've just had to sit on the floor in front of the toilet. and this is ALL HOURS... ALL HOURS

- period like cramps off and on... and you know how much those suck in general

- extreme hunger to the max... and i'm talking like STARVING. there have been several times now that i have risen from my sleep because my belly was growling at me. in a zombie-like state, i walk down to the refridgerator and eat whatever i see pretty much. and then linger back up the stairs with eyes half shut and belly full, ready to sleep again. this is much to David's amusement.

- EXTREME FATIGUE. and i'm not even joking here. i literally come home from a shift at work and then just SLEEP. sleep for hours upon hours, with no care in the world. i refuse to wake up for ANYTHING! that's how tired i am...

i can go on and on with this list of what's happening to me right now... but some things you may not want to know lol. anyways... i'll update with more details later...

=)

DSi Flipnote - B vs G Epi 1

too much fun... so addicting

Stacey you should try it!

DSi Flipnote - "Revenge"

so i downloaded this new program for my Nintendo DSi called "Flipnote"....

made a few of them today... this is gonna be fun

hahahahaha

night of death

omg... this night shift has just been pure torture. i've been slammed with tons of very difficult and disgusting patients... and not only that, i'm also alone. i've been running my butt off, i definitely feel that i'm not getting paid enough tonight! lol. seriously, it's been hell!! somebody please get me out of here!!

i'm

going

crazy!!!


oh and... a big b-day shout out to Hazel A. =D
she celebrated her big 21st bday not too long ago... very fun night!!!
i'm actually a little jealous... oh how i wish to be 21 again. i'm seriously going through like a mid-life mid-life crisis. ugh.

mass amounts of boredom

wow... i am so extremely bored. this week of night shifts has been ssssooooooo lonnggggggggg. not only that, but i feel so extremely drained of energy too. not even Facebook has kept me amused. i feel so... fidgety. lol. like i can't find anything to keep me satisfied. and now the summer is coming to an end soon!! sad =(. i didn't even come close to do all the things i wanted to do... waste!! well i guess there's still a bit of time left lol. but all i seem to do is work =(. work has taken over my life!! aaahhhhh!!

so i'm playing Final Fantasy 3... on my DSi lol. i know i know... old school right? but i've been so addicted to it! it has been my main source of amusement on nights thus far. i like to pretend i'm Luneth... but he's a boy lol. so adventurous.

ugh and i think i'm getting sick too... daily contact with the swine flu... maybe it's finally caught up to me lol. i guess i'll keep my fingers crossed. lol i'm so bored i don't even know what to write about. my mind is just BLANK. i'm only here to pass the time!!! oh my goodness... i'm only halfway through my shift! helppppp meeeee!!!

hhhmmm maybe i'll express the things i'm excited for in the upcoming week...

i'm excited to go to Ikea on Monday with Stacey and Melissa and do some furniture hunting... hahaha that sounds so old. but seriously!! Stacey, i can't believe you are moving out!! all grown up right in front of my eyes!! hahahaa. i predict very fun times ahead with your new found independence =P.

i'm excited to go out on Friday for Hazel's big 21st birthday... i'm in need of an extremely fun girls nights out =D. and knowing Hazel, this is going to be a bumpin night.

hhhhmmmm.... i'm excited to possibly have a Poker night on Saturday, and this time, play for real money lol. i think i might actually have a chance!

anddddd i can't think beyond that lol. i'm bored. i'm hungry. my eyes won't stop watering. my nose is runny. i'm deathly exhausted. unsettled. and i really need to work out lol. patients have been yelling at me today. vomitting. oozing. just gross!

i'm going crazyyyyyy!!!!

OY you need to check out the trailer for this movie!! it looks highly amusing!

life; stuff

So last week i got to go see The Lion King live in theatre!!! Went with David and my bff's, Stacey and Cherryl. It was an amazing show!!! So nicely performed and just had that "wow" factor lol. I was definitely dazzled!! Went out for dinner at Chili's beforehand, just had a lovely evening in general =).

Lol Cherryl loves to show off her glasses. (That she rarely wears, yet somehow seems to complain all the time about how she "can't see".)

And again.

Oh and it was the same day we stupidly decided to purchase the entire series of Alias lol. Random spending decisions of death. Gotta stop those.

And if anybody knows where i can get The Lion King on dvd? Or when it may come out of the "Disney Vault" again? Please let me know!!!

Oh Cherryl, you're so amusing. And you have a rather large tongue.

So i watched Miyazaki's Ponyo the other day, that is definitely one of the cutest movies i've ever seen!!! So adorable. And for those of you who think it looks like a "weird" movie, you will be mistaken once you watch it!! i do not lie =P.

And last but not least... i'm highly addicted to Wizards of Waverly Place right now. Like, i just love this show so much. I'm just breezing through season 1 right now like there's no tomorrow lol. Selena Gomez rocks!!